The times that were ..

Author: Sooraj Purandare /

The bond one shares, with his grand-parents changes over the course of time. The only constant is the love that nurtures this bond and gradually transforms it.

As a toddler, you simply adore them; love them, demand things from them, you are afraid to ask your parents for. You listen to their stories, ask them questions, and compete with other siblings for their undivided attention and praise. As you mature (fancy word for growing old), your sphere changes - Other things gain more importance - friends, girls you want to impress, girls who want to impress you, and then, after your parents insist, bug and threaten you – studies, grab your focus. It’s a phase of life, when you feel, giving your parents your precious time is a like giving away a kidney, who has time to think about grandparents.

But despite this, there are things that don’t escape your pre-occupied brain. On your birthdays, you notice the small envelope of cash, or despite your ears being hooked to the latest song, it’s hard to miss the ring of happiness in your grandmother’s voice, when she calls to speak to your father and you pick up the phone. Then there are other things that you purposefully overlook, like the increasing creases on your grandfather’s face or how hard it is for your grandmother to climb up a couple of stairs. Things that make you realize that it wasn’t just you who grew old.

I had a terrific verbal score on my GRE (thanks to my then girlfriend –now wife), but all those Barron’s words are inadequate to jot down in ink how much I miss my grandparents. There are a million memories, a million unsaid things. This is a humble attempt to do justice to a few of them.

My earliest memory about my grandfather is perhaps when I was a five year old kid. There was a ganapti pandal right next to Lakdi pul in front of Alaka talkies. The interesting part about this pandal was a swiveling ganpati, which would hand out a rajgira ladoo to you, for a rupee or so. I swear I must have had thousands of those ladoos growing up. I think till the age of 5, I have gone to that chowk almost every time, that my parents took me to visit my grandparents. It is quite astonishing; I still have vague memories of holding my grandfathers’ hand, walking down the warm, sunny, narrow streets of Sadashiv Peth, up to the chowk. I have tried hard to figure out, the major attraction, of going there - the swiveling ganpati idol or the rajgira ladoo. I think more than any of that, it was the long walk with my grandfather.

The most vivid memory however is the day before my Hindi Exam paper. My sole Hindi teacher was Bollywood. It is extremely difficult to apply a million Hindi movies, to writing an analysis on Premchand’s prose. I was done with three of my Secondary School certificate papers. For people who don’t know Secondary School Certificate or SSC as it is fondly called, believe me when I say, it is an enormous deal! To empathize with the pressure a fifteen year old feels due to it, - just try and imagine how Greece’s finance ministry must be feeling right now.

The next day was a Friday and was extremely critical, because I had to face a - 50 marks - pain in the butt Hindi exam with a 10 marks compulsory essay question. My grandfather stayed with my uncle during those days. He had done masters in English and Hindi and had done his doctorate on Rabindranath Tagore, I don’t want to brag about my lineage, was just implying that he was superb at Hindi. With half a day left till the dreaded paper, my father realized that Bhau my grandfather, was one of the last cards he had up his sleeve. So braving the boisterous May sun and temperatures ranging in 100s, my father drove my grandfather to our place.

Half an hour after, the summer sun melted, giving way to grey clouds and I gradually discovered that Premchand in fact is a master story teller. Rain pattered on my bedroom window and between steaming cups of Coffee, my grandfather explained half a dozen chapters and almost all poems the textbook had. It was the first time I enjoyed being taught, perhaps even the last time. In retrospect, I think he enjoyed even more than me.

A couple of months passed and my marks were out. I did well, but I just did well. There were people, snooty cousins, and others who had managed more than me. But my grandfather’s happiness knew no bounds. He gifted me his characteristic white envelope with cash in it. This time the envelope felt heavier, than the usual ones he and grandmother handed out. So I tried to peer through it and guess how many notes it held.

“Ajun deu ka” (Do you want some more”) my grandfather asked smiling.

“Nako bhau hech khup ahet”. (No this is way too much!) I said. I genuinely meant it. It was far more than I had expected or wanted.

I called my grandmother “Bebi Aai”. For most of their lives my grandparents stayed with my uncle. But after my grandfather passed away, “Bebi Aai” came to stay with us for 6 -7 months. And those were awesome days. I have talked with her, on almost all possible things I can think of. From movies to songs to stories to exercise and diet, to gossip about other relatives, we had almost everything covered in those 6 months.

The most embarrassing of all memories during that time, was my Second Year Engineering Result. I remember coming home, with 2 ATKTs. To those who don’t know what an ATKT is, let me just tell you the full form – Allowed To Keep the Term. If you have this insulting term scribbled across your University Of Pune Mark list it means that you have flunked quite a few papers, but somehow, by the grace of god or by the mercy of an examiner, you have made it to the next class and are “allowed to keep the term”. My parents were predictably angry and disappointed. After a brief harangue from them, I went into my room, closed the door and sat down. My head was filled with vacuum. After an hour or so, of sitting and doing nothing, I heard my parents leave for some errand. My grandmother wasn’t in the best of shapes, she barely could walk, but I heard gentle footsteps and then a soft knocking on my door. I opened the door and saw her standing outside. She was bent; her forehead showed the wrinkles old age had left. The beauty on her face was still reminiscent of perhaps how pretty she might have been in her youth.

“Thik ahes na” (“are you alright”) she gently asked.

“Ekdum!” (“Ofcourse”) I replied.

“Baher yetos” (“Come out”) she said smiling.

I smiled, and came out and sat next to her. She did not console, did not scold, we did not even discuss marks. We just sat there together watching a movie. If I remember correctly it was “Lakshya”.

Years have passed since my grandfather passed away. I was in 12th, out of jaundice, focusing on an electronic project the whole day, when he was first admitted to the hospital. Later that evening when my mother told me the news, I could hardly believe my ears. It was sudden, sharp and unexpected. Painful memories! But our family pulled through. He had raised all his five kids to be strong, I guess. No one is impervious to grief, but then again life moves on.

My grandmother passed away a couple of years ago. I was in the States alone. I stood looking out of my apartment that evening silent and lost. My mind was in a vacuum. I think I was half expecting soft footsteps and a smiling face to come around and ask me if I was doing fine.

Life has moved on again. However sometimes a brief stop on the traffic light near Alaka talkies, or Lakshya’s songs playing in the car on the drive to the office, or Premchand’s name in a newspaper, opens up gates to the past and I feel my heart tugged and pulled by the years that went by.

Tu humesha sahi bolti hai .... Janemannn

Author: Sooraj Purandare /

Well the title of this post is a dialogue, that Saif effortlessly croons in his nasal voice, atleast twice in Love Aaj Kal. This post is not a review of Lova Aaj Kal, but may be it is going to seem like one, when I finish writing it, I know the movie has the same story, the same happy ending, the same set of emotions, the same wedding scenes, the same punjabi mumbo jumbo, and oh my gosh so many things are just the same as any typical bollywood love story !!, but still Love Aaj Kal does manage to tingle some of the very delicate, safely hidden strings of your heart.

The story effectively compares two love stories , one set in the old, rustic, Dehli of 1950's (or shld i say Dilli) and the other set in today's practical, achievement crazy world that revolves in urban cities like London, San Fransisco and so on.

Jai (Saif) and Meera Pandit (Deepika) decide to break up and go their own separate ways, priamarily because their careers are taking them in different geographical locations, and both of them don't want the stress of a long distance relationship. But alas love's ways are magical, their hearts till yearn for each other, and in spite of the geographical distance, they end up getting even more closer to each other via the phone, chat rooms, etc etc. The hazy confusion about their own feelings and theier over developed, practical, worldy senses, results into Deepika's decision to marry her boss (played by Rahul Khanna). Unhappily but in search of some vague practical reason, they decide to separate once and for all.

The story is simultaneously compared in synch with Rishi Kapoor's story(Saif plays the younger Rishi Kapoor) And this story set in old yesteryear's Dehli, is the more charming one. Saif chases around Harleen Kaur, on his bicycle, as she rides in cycle rikshaws to and fro from her college. He goes all the way to Kolkatta to get one glance of his sweetheart, and gets beaten to the ground by her elder Jatt brothers, when he asks for her hand, on a railway platform. The story nicely carries the subtleness of unsaid and yet known and accepted love, and is sure to bring a smile on most lips.

The music is amazing, woven really well into the film, the background score too is soothing and extremely appropriate, it cannot be original, because Pritam has composed it. The lyrics are more of a Punjabi-Hindi mixture, like they are now a days in almost all bollywood love stories. the editing is classy, and even in a trite story keeps u guessing of how the next set of events will unfold. Saif is sometimes over the top in his acting, and Deepika shines in her underplayed , soft modern, demure look. Imtiaz Ali, after being in direction and or story and screenplay of numerous love stories like, Socha Na Tha, Ahista Ahista and the his last success Jab We Met, manages to extract fine performances and makes Love Aaj Kal quite more than the usual week end movie.


What stays with you after the film is the desperation to get your love, which has been portrayed so well. People who have crossed paths, fought, bled in an attempt to win that special heart, go watch this movie, and you will remember all those countless moments. Feel the agony of loosing that special person, and then revive the triumph of winning her heart, all in 2 and half hours.

So your name is Khan ???

Author: Sooraj Purandare /

The king of bollywood, the badshah, Yash Chopra's blue eyed boy, (Karan Johar)Dharma Production's Lion, humbled for two hours at an airport !!!!!!!! "Nahin k k k k kehdo ke yeh jhooth hai "
Well guess who was recently in news ? Mr Shahrukh Khan aka apna SRK. The news is that he was detained for 2 hours, at EWR (Newark Airport) , (gosh I landed there when I for the first time entered US), and in these two hours, our demigod, a hunk who romanced our most beautiful actresses in the even more beautiful alps, was grilled, questioned, denied even the right to call, and all this because his surname is "Khan". Hey SRK, isn't that you next movie ? 'My name is Khan' !!!.


India of course took this as an attack on her pride. SRK's fans went into a frenzy, they were angered, Sallu miya aka Salman Khan(once friend , now rival, some time back foe) said that "Security checks are normal" in his "Americanized " accent. The IB minister roared that every American should be treated the same in India (WTF !!!!!!!!), and Shahrukh with his as usual k k k kool wit replied to this saying that "He would like to frisk Megan Fox whenever she comes to Inida(if and when she does) like he was frisked at Newark. K K K Kyaa baat haaai !!! Mr K K Khan.

Through all this one man was quietly smiling. Our Dostana Dude ,Mr Karan Johar, his film did get the publicity and the talk that was very much needed. Mr Khan who is co-producing this film , has already sold its rights to an American Studio for about 95 corores , a price which according to trade pundits is much less than any Indian distributing company would have paid, but this was appearently done to create an American Audience hmmmm (so the publicity too had to be Global or American).

What strikes me most is that even if he was detained, even if he was humiliated, even if he suffered, Kings don't go and make an issue of their sufferings in front of the media, but then, its a pauper (a beggar for publicity) that we are talking about. Make an issue, get publicity, and then make statements like "I am Shahrukh Khan, I don't need this kind of Publicity" . Thousands of Indians have faced racism in all parts of the world, thousands do everyday, and not just Muslims, every caste, I distinctly remember that even I was grilled for some time at Newark, and not just grilled, the officer actually said that he would tear my papers and send me back home on the next flight to India. But then I rarely talk about it, because I am not a Khan, and neither am I King.

The way India reacted to this was absolutely pathetic, it took about ten Indian students to be beaten up harshly, in Australia, one actually died, there was a big student protest down under, and then our government took some notice, but when it was SRK, every minister took it as a personal insult.

What angers me more is the fact that he may have been singled out because he is a Khan, but to make this public in an already Hindu- Muslim polarized nation like ours, now that is really not befitting a King's behavior. I mean common, in spite of you being a Khan, people all around the world have given you respect, Mr. Khan has the French Honor in acting, he has his statue in Madam Tussads, he was recently conferred a doctorate degree by a London university and he earns dollars from the very country, whose security mechanisms, make him felt humiliated.


Loads of Indians have suffered this and will keep on suffering this, for a long time, irrespective of whether their surname is 'Khan'. So why all the fuss Mr. Khan ? Take it in your stride, people call you a king, behave like one.

Jai Guru

Author: Sooraj Purandare /

I am true blue 'Puneri' . जाज्वल्य अभिमान आहे माला त्याचा. पुण्याच्या पाण्याची गोडी नही हो कुठे.

Anyways this short article is not about, how much I love Pune. This city has some wonderful temples, Junglee Maharaj temple being one of them. I was about 4- 5 when I first climbed the steps of this temple. My maternal grandparents live on Ghole Road, which is very close from Junglee Maharaj Temple. All my childhood memories have now faded, but I still remember that particular day, as if it was yesterday, I distinctly remember sitting in the temple, my grandmother had told me to stay quiet, but other than my grandmother's order,there was something else,something about the place,something mesmerizing that simply took over all my senses and I sat down besides her not uttering a single word. I have been visiting the temple for the past 22 years, but I am still trying to find out what that something is. All I can say is that its a feeling that takes you the closest to ultimate peace ,the place almost disconnects you from all your worries, tensions, pressures and takes you into a different world.

My grandparents told me to visit the temple every thursday, I have missed some, but I try really hard to make it, whenever its a Thursday. Junglee Maharaj road or JM road has changed a lot from what it used to be 15 years ago, and what it is now. The temple is still the same. Its devotees have increased, singers like Hrudaynath Mangeshkar and others perform at its annual function. The temple is basically a samadhi of Janglee Maharaj. Its really unbelievable and quite shameful. that I still don't really know ,much about the history associated with it. I am just aware of the magic this place has. I think this temple has a sort of healing ability, every time I have been low, depressed or confused, Junglee mharaj temple has been the answer.

I request everyone in Pune and those who might visit Pune, anytime, you are sure to go visit JM road, do not miss JM temple, its a bit ahead and you will have to climb up a few steps, but go in, just keep your head on the samadhi and whisper 'Jai Guru'... Its more than worth the effort.

Gulaal

Author: Sooraj Purandare /



I simply fail to comprehend the cinematic depth, the artistic freedom and the razor sharp courage that Anurag Kashyap has,he moves from highlight to highlight, infusing Indian cinema with a whole new breath. His latest offering, well it was made way back, delayed thanks to our censor board, Gulaal offers a whole new outlook to cinema. a story of political chaos, a thrilling, enthralling screenplay, a story that defies all conventions of a bollywood pot boiler, and to top it of, actors like KK menon, Mahi Gill, Deepak Dobriyal etc, class act, one cant ask for more.

Rajputana wants to be an independent state. K K menon goes in with a bandwagon of Aristocratic Rajas, convincing the youth that the Indian state was formed by a bunch of cheaters who have looted Rajputana of its traditional wealth, heritage and have given nothing but disrespect and inustice in return. Democracy any one ? This forms the crux of story. Backed by the wealth of the century old Rajas, KK menon tries to defeat the concept of Democracy and goes in to form an independent Rajputana.

His party backs student politics in the local university, and that is where the story begans to catch pace. From estranged cousins, to step sisters, to a woman who uses her head, her charms, and even her tears as weapons the story captures the dark side of human pshyche with elan. The viewer is subjected to a cocktail of love, ambition, greed and power. Terrific is one word that you can manage at the end of 120 minutes of this poltical drama. The background score and the music of the film is awesome, with a fine blend of Rajastani folk, indian classical, and a great undertone of western rhythms

Go in for Gulaal, and get yoursef painted in its colour. I am never too keen on writing blogs that comment on issues, or movies, or socio-political and economical developments. I sincerely feel that opining about something is more to do with knowledge and less to do with imagination.
However today I am writing this article just for the one man, whose imagination is free from the bounds of a conventional society, and yet he manages to deliver something that is so parallel to the same conventional society,though he is so radically rebellious against it. Anurag Kashyap, I hope this is just one of the many more to come.

Arambha hai prachanda............

Poison Ivy............

Author: Sooraj Purandare /


THIS IS A WORK OF FICTION

Present Day - New York


"How does it feel, Romeo" Neha asked Rohit, her hand was glistening with oil. Rohit was lying on the bed, his T shirt, on the floor below. Neha was sitting besides him massaging his back. The oil's gentle perfume dwindled in the air. Rohit did not reply. Neha put out more oil on his already oil soaked back, and gently started caressing it,Rohit let out a soft groan, enjoying her hands on his back. Suddenly she pinched Rohit and he let out a low shout "Oaaawww"
"I asked you how does it feel ? can't you answer ?"
"Feels like heaven" Rohit turned his neck, looking at Neha, through the corner of his eyes.
"Well you aren't dead yet." she said gazing at him. Rohit sat up straight on the bed and gave a soft tug to the upper button of her shirt.

"Kill me" he whispered softly,looking straight into her black eyes. Neha smiled. “Don't Rohit, one shouldn't repeat mistakes”

Rohit gave another tug to the button and it slipped off its hook revealing her fair skin beneath. Neha looked at Rohit,and slowly started undoing the rest of the buttons of her shirt. Rohit could no longer hold her eyes. Neha pinched him again,seeing his eyes going down.
"Oaaawww" he screamed.
She removed her shirt,slowly and threw it on the floor below. Rohit took her hand in his fingers, and gave her a slight pull towards himself. She freed her hand from his fingers, and raising her eyebrows gestured towards the door of the bedroom. Giving Rohit's hand a small pat, she got up and started walking across the room. Rohit stared at her bare back, and drew a sharp breath. There was a clicking sound of the door being latched, and after a minute the lights had dimmed, the only small glow that now gave the room some bare minimum visibility, was a small red candle standing on crystal stand besides the bed, its flame flickering gently. Neha came up to the bed,and stood besides it, looking at Rohit. He stood up right in front of her, and in one swift motion, pulled her, by her waist towards him. Now she was very close, he could feel her breath on his face. Neha put her hand on his back, it was still wet by the oil. He smelled great, his scent drew her towards him, like an addictive drug. After all in the past few months Rohit had become nothing short of a drug, and she had been the indulgent abuser. He had become her greatest sin, her greatest intoxication, a temptation she tried to resist, only because then the joy of succumbing to it was sweeter.

Rohit moved his lips towards hers, but she pushed him away,the force made Rohit stumble backward and he fell on the bed behind him. She stood besides the bed looking into Rohit's eyes and scanning his bare chest. They were in a strange dark haze, their minds, thoughts clouded by a mist of excitement and temptation, The subconscious was still in control of the engulfing urge, but was on the edge of loosing that authority. No soul is so strong, it finally yields in to the body, forget the mind. Both of them were perhaps just waiting for the other to take the next step. Neha bent down towards Rohit. Rohit saw her chest heave up and down, her breathing was loud and heavy.She traced a heart on his bare chest with a finger. Rohit shivered with the cold tickling touch.
"Time to Die Romeo," she said looking into his eyes.


3 Years Ago- Pune

It was hot, dusty and dry. The afternoon sun was radiating heat and the traffic on Fergusson Road made the entire place reek of pollution. Two boys were standing at the traffic signal crossing, trying to get to the other end. One of them was tall, smart, handsome a definite head turner. The other was shorter than him, athletically built, had a slight look of excitement on his face.
"Be nice" Aditya told the shorter one as they finally found their chance to cross Fergusson Road.
"what do you mean by be nice?" Rohit replied, avoiding a speeding moped.
"well just don't be too much of, you know, you"
“What ?”
"Well she is my girl friend ” Aditya said, as they entered the entered the coffee shop, across the street.
“So do not be over critical of her, and please do not indulge in, asking her your so-called personality analyzers”
“Then how will I get to know her” Rohit asked scanning the coffee shop.

“Shut up Rohit, your questions are sheer torture, just be cool nice and friendly,you are not here to interview her, you her to meet a woman who means the world to me,so be nice”

Rohit was barely listening. He had spotted the most beautiful girl inside the shop, she was sitting on one of the high chairs, along side the coffee bar. Her hair wasn't tied and it fell down right up to her waist in waves. She had deep, dark eyes, her eyebrows, her nose, every bit of her face was perfect. It took a good one minute for Rohit to understand that she was perhaps waving to him, he saw Aditya wave back to her. “There she is” Aditya said pointing towards her.

Rohit and Aditya made their way towards her, she stood up as they came near her.

“Rohit meet Neha and Neha this is Rohit” Aditya said keeping his hand on Rohit's shoulder.

“So you are Rohit” Neha said shaking hands with Rohit,”The best friend, the adviser, the person Aditya believes in the most”

Rohit smiled “ And you are Neha, the most beautiful girl” Rohit paused and kept holding her hand “In this coffee shop”

Neha laughed out aloud, and so did Aditya.

“Thank you for the complement”

“Its just an observation” Rohit smiled and gestured towards an empty table of three. “Shall we ?”

Present Day -- New York
Present Day - New
The snow had made everything outside a pretty picture painted in white. There had been a blizzard the day before, and cold winds blew across the windows, making the window panes frosty. After about 3 hours Neha woke up. She looked at Rohit sleeping besides her. His handsome face turned down buried inside the pillow. Neha turned away, and found herself gazing into a mirror on the wall.She saw her reflection, her hair was disheveled, her lip stick was smeared across her lips, she remembered Rohit's lips ravaging her face. Her eyes had a strange satisfaction in them, they looked calm, placid, almost smiling. She felt a cold hand wrapping her bare waist. She saw Rohits face above her in the reflection n the mirror. She smiled at him in the reflection. He kissed the back of her neck gently and she turned towards him . “You look tired,Romeo” she whispered, her lips bent in a sly smile.

“Exhausted, but I can stretch myself” he said pinching her waist.”By the way, why do you call me Romeo”

“Well Romeo was a big liar according to me”

“I am not a liar” Rohit said pinching her waist again

“You should probably try and remember that I am your best friend's fiancee.” she looked at Rohit still smiling.

“Don't, don't make me remember that now”

he moved closer to her, his lips brushing against her arm, the candle along side the bed had almost melted. The flicker burnt brightly one last time and then went off plunging the room into darkness, the cold wind howled outside, Neha felt her lips being being kissed and she kissed him back, her hand running through his short black curly hair.

5 Years ago Pune.


The podium looked all set. A red carpet was laid up to the steps. A seventeen year old boy looked all around him. He was sitting in the crowd, his best friend right next to him, almost 200 people had gathered that day at the WIE complex in Pune. The young boy had won the tournament. In about half an hour the prize distribution would start and he would walk up to the stage to claim the open state mens under 19 championship.

An hour later he held the trophy in his hand,he starred at his name written below it and the letters 'MAHARASHTRA' inscribed at the back side.


“Congratulations Rohit”,

a girl wished him as she passed by him, staring at him a little longer than required. “Congratulations bro” some one gave him a big pat from behind. Rohit turned back to look at Aditya.

“You deserve this more than I do” Rohit said.

“Then give it to me” Aditya replied laughing.

“You weren't injured in the semifinal, you backed out cause you didn't want to play the final against me. You wanted me to have this", said Rohit raising the trophy

“I have two of them already” Aditya replied.

“Well you should have played and beaten me, and got this one as well, it would have been a record, no one has won three times in a row”

“Seeing you hold it, seeing people come and wish you, listening your praise, that is more satisfying than holding it again” Aditya said punching Rohit in the stomach.

Rohit smiled. “Well I do like the attention” . He gestured towards the girl who had just congratulated him.


Aditya walked back home late that night. It was dark, and the road was completely empty. He was feeling odd, he had dreamt about making that record. He had dreamt about his name flashing in the papers,now it would be Rohit' s name Had he really done the right thing?. He could have beaten Rohit fair and square. But the idea of competing against him was almost mind numbing.
Never had they been pitted against each other in all these years, and simply the thought of beating Rohit in front of so many people, made him shiver. “Next time” he said to himself “Next time if he is against me, I won't run away”. In his heart, he hoped that such a time won't come.



Present Day - New York

The next day Neha woke up in an hurry. Rohit was still asleep, snoring loudly. She hated people who snored, but Rohit was an exception. She brushed her hair, looking in the mirror.. Her life had gone for a toss, she was betroth, she had probably fallen in love with her to be husband's best friend. Love, lust, casual sex god knows what?. The east coast was in terrible recession, any time she could be told to go back to her college. She was currently pursuing an internship, on wall street. She had come as a student for her masters, at NYU, she had been an exemplary student in the first semester, all that had changed when Rohit arrived the next semester to pursue his masters. They bonded and they bonded a bit too well. Everything had gone out of schedule. She looked at her watch, it was 8 am. She rushed out after half a bowl of cereals, and some pan cakes Gosh she hated them. AS she rushed into the metro, she saw her train leave in front of her eyes. “Fuck!” she said out aloud, now she had to wait for another three minutes. Her phone rang, and she dug her hand inside her purse, knowing that it would be Rohit., asking if there was something to eat in the house. It was Aditya. “A sudden cold shiver went up her spine. The guilt, the shame, the lies, everything came back flooding again. She picked up the phone and before Aditya could say anything,she spoke into the speaker “Hey honey,I will call you as soon as I get to office, I am in bit of rush now”

“Oh ok, take care, I love you” he said, the last three words made her heart fill with heavy guilt. Every time Aditya would say these words, she would want to say it back to him, and something stopped her from doing that. She cut the phone and kept it back in her bag. She looked at the diamond sitting on her finger as she took her hand out of the bag.



2 Years ago -Le -Meridian, Pune


“I know you work in a big Company, and the pay you a hefty salary, but Le Meridian? Neha asked Aditya. Her eyes were filled with pride. The man she fell in love with, when he had nothing, whom she trusted, had today got a job, people would have given their lives for. Aditya did not answer. He was looking around the restaurant searching for something.

“Are you all right?”

“Absolutely, Never been better”

“Well you seem a bit jittery” Neha said.

“Well I am tensed” Aditya said, as a waiter brought out a piece of chocolate pastry.

“Dessert before dinner?” Neha asked smiling, grabbing a a knife.

“Well I thought we would start with something sweet” Aditya replied.

Neha dug the knife into the soft mousse and its end hit something hard, and there was a soft metallic sound.

“What is this? “ she said out aloud, digging the knife deeper and taking the metallic part out.

Aditya kept quiet. Slowly Neha's eyes filled with tears, as she held the diamond ring in her hand. Aditya took it from her, took her right hand in his hands and put it on her finger.

“I am not gonna ask you, I am just gonna tell you. Be mine” he said smiling


That Evening -- New York


Neha came home from work looking anxious. Rohit was still there in her apartment browsing on his laptop. “Hey” he said as she opened the door and stepped in the living room

“Hey, you didn't go to school?” Neha questioned, seeing him in the same pyjamas he had worn last night.

“Nope”

“Well shouldn't you at least go back to your dorms now” she asked.

“Nope”

“Rohit” she shouted at the top of her voice and Rohit looked up from his laptop. “Go back to your dorms”

“What is the matter ?” Rohit asked, burying his head again in the laptop.

“The matter is you have been sleeping with your best friend's fiancee and I have been behaving like a slut, and I want to put an end to all this so please go back to your dorms, get out of my apartment, out of my life”

She sat down on a chair with a thud and flung her bag on the couch. “ I feel like a slut, Rohit. This is not right, Aditya loves me and I love him”

“Then why did all this happen” Rohit said shutting his laptop, with a gentle thud

“I don't know, I was missing him terribly that night, there was vodka, my brain had stopped working, I was happy because I had got this job, it was just a carefree night, I went on indulging and you joined the party”

No one spoke anything for a moment.

“Rohit”, said Neha after a pause “I love Aditya and this is not because I am feeling guilt or because I am afraid of being disloyal. Whatever you and I had, was I dont know what, may be two people giving in to a weak moment. I love Aditya and I always will”

“Regardless of the number of people you sleep with, behind his back”

Neha's expression turned to anger, and then all of a sudden she smiled

“ And what about you, a person who betrays his own friend, a friend who sacrificed his championship record for you”

Rohit stood up with a sudden jerk, he came near her and gave her a tight slap.

“ Aaahhh” Neha let out a scream,looking totally surprised.

“I never told him to do that. He did it, on his own, I did not want it, I can beat him at anything, I can get the better out of him, any day, and not only in badminton, everywhere” Rohit shouted.

“He was a champion at school, a champion at everything, girls used to swoon over him, his parents used to rave about him and tell his stories to my mother, tell my mother how good he was at studies, of how the school had got an exceptionally talented boy, of how the school had funded him,and Aditya would offer me help in my studies. Bastard! I didn't need it, but my mother used to force me to sit down with him and study. He used to give me everything, his notes, his homework. I used to burn it.” Rohit said taking a deep breath a far away look in his eyes. “ I could get good marks on my own. Everywhere he used to be first and I used to be second, I would be good, and he would be best”

Rohit looked at Neha, her cheek was crimson red, and he could see two fingers imprinted on her fair skin. She was still in shock of what had justhappened, but was listening intently to Rohit.

“I never thought of him as my best friend” Rohit continued. “When I saw you first,I developed a terrible crush on you, and every day I used to curse Aditya that he had got to you before me. I was going to get you from him, because I was in love with you, I never came to New York to get my degree, I came here because I wanted you, Neha.” Rohit paused, he came and sat down besides the chair on which Neha was sitting. “I love you, and you love me too,Neha” he said slowly “why else would we end up together, why else do you wait for me every night, why else do you lie to Aditya, and tell him that you have not seen me for days?. Answer me Neha”


“You don't love me” Neha said softly after a long silence. “You love defeating Aditya and I was a card in your ego game." Neha paused, she took a deep breath, her eyes starring vividly into space,she spoke after a minute, this time her voice wasn't soft, the tone was hard, declarative and affirmative, "and you know what I love Aditya even more now. Its better you leave Rohit. My fionce trusted you with his friendship, and you have prooved to be unworthy of it."

“Your fiance!” Rohit exclaimed standing up.” Will he still be your fiance when he finds out what you do behind his back, after a couple of pegs of Vodka?”

“You are a disgusting cheap man, Rohit,you want to go and tell him? go and tell him, please do. I can't understand how I ever let you touch me."
"Well your memory is really weak, many times you were on your knees, begging me, to touch you"
Rohit felt a hard slap against his cheek. " All I can feel for you now, is pity, not even anger or hate, just pity.Get put of my house." Neha said pointing towards the door of her house

Rohit heard the door shutting behind him. He climbed down the stairs of the apartment into the cold , snow covered street. His mind was consumed with rage. He took out his cell phone and dialed a number typing furiously on the key pad. Aditya picked up at the other end.


It had been a month, Rohit hadn't called Neha or Aditya, and neither of them had called Rohit. The other day when Rohit called, Aditya he told Aditya evrything that had happened between him and Neha. Aditya's first reaction was an angry yell. Rohit smiled as he remembered this. There was no guilt in any corner of Rohit's heart. Jealousy is bad master. It covers your eyes, makes you see the world in green. Evrything turns into a poison ivy, you cannot recognise friends, you cannot recognise yourself. Rohit's jealousy hadn't developed overnight, it was something that had accumulated over years and years. Neha was right in judging herself as a card, in Rohit's ego game. Unfortunately she had become an ace card, a card that Rohit had planned on since the moment he had heard about Aditya and her decision to marry, but a card that he hadnt played well enough.
There was hustle of Inidan, Pakistani and Bangladeshi cab drivers as soon as Aditya got out of terminal 4 at John F Kennedy airport. His mind was numb, his thoughts were frozen. After an hour's drive he was standing in front of Neha's aapartment waiting for her to open the door. He was going to see her after a month. The door opened slowly and Aditya stepped in, Neha looked beautiful, she had grown a bit thin, her long hair was tied up in a single knot,her eyes however seemed shy of him. Aditya wanted to hold her, in her arms. He moved forward but the next second, he stopped right in his step.


The door of the lab opened suddenly with a wide swing and heavy creaking noise. Rohit was siiting inside working on his laptop. "Get up bastard" Aditya stood in the doorway, Neha was peeking from behind him. Her eyes swolen and red. Rohit stood up, he had never ever seen Aditya this angry. Aditya walked right upto Rohit, and stood towering above him
"I was just being a friend" Rohit said without battering an eylid. "Thats why I told you everything"
There was sound like a gunshot, but it was just a slap, Rohit fell on the ground,his head hit a desk as he was falling and blood oozed out his forehead.
"Do you even know what a friend is" Aditya screamed at him. He grabbed Rohit by the collar and made him stand up again. Rohit looked at Neha, she was watching , with a bit of fright on her face.
"Look Adi," Rohit started.
"Aaaaaaaannnh" Rohit screamed as a fist rammed into his ribs.
"Don't call me Adi. You know there is just one thing you deserve" Aditya threw him back on the ground and spat on his face.
He turned towrds Neha, "you are a cheap dirty slut." Neha's eyes watered and tears starting rolling down her cheek. "You don't even deserve my spite"
"f*** each other both of you,and then some day betray each other, thats all that you can do."

Neha fell on the floor on her knees. "dont say that, please Adi"
Rohit, wiped off his face with his palm. His mind was in utter chaos. There was nothing but havoc inside his head. Slowly he got up. Was this real ? When did Aditya came to New York, and how? Rohit had never ever expected Aditya to come all the way to New York, he had thought that Aditya would break the engagement and a sad lonely Neha would come into his arms again. He saw Aditya standing at a distance,Neha on her knees in front of him., Rohit looked at Aditya, his initial shock subsided and hatred like never before arose in his heart,he ran towards Aditya and grasped him by his neck,pulled him down on the floor. "You bloody mother*****!!" Rohit shouted and kicked Aditya on his face. "No" screamed Neha getting up, she threw herself on Rohit,and held Rohit by his waist. Rohit swung himself and threw her away with his right hand. She swivelled on her foot and fell on the floor below. Her head banged against a large metallic room hater placed int the corner of the lab. Neha saw the room dissapearing into darkness. Her eyesight dimmed and she faintly heard Aditya screaming 'Nooooooo'. She shut her eyes,her skull errupted with pain as if being torn appart.

7 years later - Pune

An old woman sat stiching rags on the floor. Several other women in white saris were doing some physical training exercises on the ground. Aditya looked at them, and spotted Neha in the third row stretching her arms. After about half an hour they were sitting besides each other, on the steps outside a small door. There was a small board above the door, that read "Vrindawan hospital for mentally chalanged patients, Yerawda, Pune"
Neha looked at Aditya with a blank expression on her face. Slowly her eyes noticed something familiar about him. She smiled, and touched his forehead with her index finger,she pushed hard against it and made a starting-noise of a car in her throat. A tear rolled down Aditya's cheek. She looked at it coming down, and caught in her palm as it was about to fall down.

"There has been absolutely no improvement" the doctor told Aditya inside a cabin.
"The injury is deep, right inside her brain bocking, damaging several cells, and a millinon nerves, she still has some of her basic functions intact , this tself is nothing short of a miracle You have been coming here evry single day for seven long years now, how long are you going to keep hoping? Even her parents don't visit her now."


Years have passed. The jealousy of one man, the vulnerabilty of one woman, and the excessive trust and love of a friend, ruined three lives. Each one of them is still alive, but they are just alive. Rohit tried to get on with his life, but that never happened. He got married but ended up getting divorced. He now lives a virtually friendless life, no one in the world bothers about him. He lives in a small one room apartment in Queens, not even hs neighbours know that he exists. He works for a small investment firm and spends the rest of his time in reading spiritual hindu books.

Adtya could never ever live his life normally again,he never married, he works as a part time assitant in a small local I.T company, he has dedicated most of his time to Neha, after a few years he even had her shifted in his home. They now live together, she goes in a school for mentally challenged students. Rohit and Aditya never ever talked again, Aditya still has thetwo championship trophies in his showcase and an old photograph of Rohit holding another one. He had made a mistake by letting Rohit win that trophy, A big mistake.






Chemistry....

Author: Sooraj Purandare /


THIS IS A WORK OF FICTION

It was a raining cats and dogs, and Rohit had as usual forgotten his jacket, so when he entered the porch of their college he was looking like someone who had just climbed out of Niagara. Wiping the tickling drops of his forehead he ran up the stairs towards his classroom. ‘Fuck! I am late again’ he thought, looking at his watch. It was 2.10, the lecture usually started at 1.50. He was completely soaked, hungry and was in no mood to tolerate a ‘networks and information security’ lecture. Lately attendance had become compulsory in their college and he had managed to become, what they used to call a defaulter, in all the past 3 semesters. Panting, he reached the third floor and saw someone as wet as him standing outside the closed door of the class room. He smiled 'I am not the only idiot' he thought. Rohit couldn’t make out who the person was. He reached the door and said 'Late?" The person turned and for the first time in his life, Rohit found himself staring into the most beautiful brown eyes ever. “Oh! Neha, it is you? I thought it was some one else” Rohit said. "My bike punctured! Shit! As it is I have rarely attended NIS lectures. Krishna Sir is pretty strict". She said looking at him. "Krishna teaches NIS. I thought it was that fat lady who used to teach us Software Engineering". He replied, looking inside through the open window and catching a glimpse of Krishna scribbling something on the board. "You don’t know who teaches NIS?" said Neha smiling. "I know who has the most beautiful smile in our class though" he replied gazing at her. Her smile widened. "Stop it Rohit”
Her cheeks had turned crimson. She shook her wet hair, brushed aside a few strands from her forehead and started peering through the window of the classroom. She smiled, as a chalk piece flew out of the window. Theirs’ was perhaps the most notorious class ever. They had no discipline, no sincerity, no respect for their professors and they were all, very proud of this.

Rohit saw her gazing intently through the window. Her forehead was all wrinkled up, she was perhaps, still in self-debate as to go in or not, yet her lips were curled up in a soft, sweet smile. Her right cheek had a slight dimple. Her hair was all wet, and a drop trickled down along her cheek, from her wet forehead. She was gorgeous; nothing in the world could have measured up to the beauty her smile had enclosed. "Well its no use going in now” she said, her voice breaking into his thoughts. "Yes let’s go and have some coffee in the canteen” he said looking at her. She hesitated. "I had some work in the library.” “Oh! Fine” he said. Rohit felt a tinge of disappointment as he started to walk away. "Are you going to the canteen?" Her voice came from behind. "Yes" he replied, turning back "Well the coffee at Barista is better, I will come, if you are going there.” she said raising only her left eyebrow, again flashing that small dimple. A month had passed, and what had started as small time crush had now developed into some serious one-sided infatuation. Rohit’s day in college started with Neha, it passed in gazing at her, his evenings in daydreaming about her and before he slept, he at least exchanged 10 SMSes with her. As he interacted with her more and more, one thing was rapidly becoming clear, he wasn’t the only hero in the movie. Siddhartha Rao. Siddhartha or as Neha called him ‘Sid’ was smart, not as much as Rohit, intelligent, again a few notches below Rohit, and handsome, not even anywhere near to Rohit. But yes Siddhartha was pretty much involved in Neha, and unfortunately for Rohit, even Neha had some interest in Sid.


“Do you think Neha has something for Sid” Rohit asked Arun one day, looking across the street at the two of them standing in the college porch discussing something. “Don’t know dude, anyway who cares?” Arun said, looking up from his cell phone. “May be” he said after a pause, and buried his head into the phone again. Rohit frowned. Both Sid and Neha had probably been good friends since a long time. Their comfort level with each other was great, and rarely but surely Rohit could see some sparks here and there. It was a dark, cloudy day. The clouds had encompassed the sky and every now and then there was a loud roar of lightening. “Shit!” exclaimed Arun with a start, as a light drizzle began. “Bloody rain” he shouted, getting up and running across the street into the college porch, where Neha and Sid were standing. Rohit hurried behind him. It started pouring down slowly at first and then the drizzle grew into a mighty shower. Rohit was in the porch, Neha and Sid were still pretty much involved in whatever they had been discussing before, but this time even though she was talking with Sid, her eyes were talking with Rohit. She kept on looking at him and he kept watching her, a couple of minutes passed, but they held each others gaze. Suddenly Sid ran out in the rain, and the moment was broken, by his sudden sprint. Neha looked at him puzzled. “Wow!” He shouted, enjoying the rain, spreading his hands out, getting drenched “Come on” he looked back at Neha, and gestured her to come and join him “What are you doing? Come in, you will catch a cold.” Neha shouted. Siddhartha smiled, he shook his wet hair and kept dancing in the rain. To Rohit, he looked like a monkey thrown in a bathroom shower, jumping like an idiot. Sid raised his hand and gestured Neha to come out, once again "plz dont go,plz don go" a voice in Rohit’s heart shouted. Of course Neha couldn’t listen to it. She smiled and then she ran out in the rain. Rohit looked at her and then at him. "You need to go and tell her dude, that you love her or else she is going to go, and you are going to watch, like you are watching right now." Arun said, still buried inside his phone. Rohit looked up at Arun and then again into the rain. How he wished he could do what Arun had just said. He looked at Neha and Siddhartha now hitting each other in the rain. He used hit her, then she used to run behind him, to hit him. It was extremely childish. Neha was looking like an angel. She was in a white-blue punjabi suit. Her hair pulled back by a very loose rubber. Most of it was wet now and would cover her face every now and then. Every time she would pull back some of those wet strands with her fingers. Rohit’s eyes, it seemed were dancing with her. They caught every single expression on her face, every single step that she was taking in the rain and every little movement of her gentle feet. Suddenly she stopped chasing Sid. She started walking across the street, towards the porch, she came near Rohit. Rohit gulped, he kept looking at her in a weird, awkward manner. “You need a written invitation to come and play” she said looking at him. Rohit smiled. She hit him and ran into the rain. ‘It’s not that childish, after all’ he thought as he darted behind her. Suddenly her wet sandal slipped, she was about to fall, with a miraculous effort, almost as if by magic, Rohit reached her and grasped her hand. The touch was like an enchantment. She steadied herself balancing gently on her wet sandal, holding tightly on to his arm. ‘God bless high heels’ Rohit thought in his mind. She looked at him, her fingers now intertwined with his. Her breathing was heavy and fast. He looked into her deep brown eyes. And that’s the moment he realized, he wanted to look into them, his entire life. There was gush of strong wind, and it blew her wet hair on to her eyes. She cleared it with her free hand. It was almost as if both of them had forgotten where they were, they just stood there in the rain looking at each other. Chemistry !!!!!!!!!!!" shouted Ratish breaking the moment, coming from the foot ball field with an extremely muddy football in his hand. A group of guys from their class followed. Rohit let Neha's hand go and Ratish gave another shout "Ohwwwwwwwwwwwwwww What a Chemistry!!!!! “ "Shut up Ratish" Neha said looking up at Ratish. Rohit looked back at Sid, Sid was smiling, but his face looked oddly strange as if he had been slapped repeatedly about hundred times and then told to smile. His expression gave Rohit a strange vindictive pleasure. Rohit looked at Neha, He wanted to hold her hand again, and it seemed as if her eyes were screaming at him asking him to do just that.

Almost 2 months had passed and submissions were now making their presence felt. “Give me the second assignment for D.S.P” Rohit heard Neha ask Sid. Rohit was completing his assignment sitting in the corner of the class, looking at them from a distance. The desire to go and tell her, his feelings was strong, but the fear of facing a denial was even stronger. What if she says no? What if the friendship, that had blossomed, evaporates? What if she indeed likes Sid? All these questions were holding him back. Studies had taken a serious backseat. He had absolutely no idea of what assignments they had been given, of how much portion had been covered and there was this one subject, Theory of Computation that he hadn’t even attended once. All in all Rohit had only one thought running in his mind and that was ‘Neha’. He was rapidly turning into a love struck starry eyed boy. Every simple thing that Neha did had an impact on him. A simple flash of her dimples would keep him happy, and if the smile had been for Sid, it would keep poor Rohit filled with jealousy. He was in love with her. Unexpressed love is very painful. The very concept of concealing your feelings, from the one person, who should know about them, is extremely unhealthy. Colors had lost brightness, food had lost taste and there was only one person who could do anything about Rohit’s deplorable health, and that person had no idea about his critical condition.




“Go and tell her that” said Ratish. “What if she says no?” Rohit asked looking down at the floor below. They were in a juice shop in old Hyderabad. Rohit had a glass full of juice, in his hand, since the past half hour. He was so consumed in his thoughts that he hadn’t even tasted it “She wont” said Ratish taking a gigantic sip from his glass. “I often think she has something for Sid” Rohit said looking up from the floor and into Ratish’s eyes. “Look dude, why do you care what she feels about some one else, right now, you are head over heels in love with her. Go and tell her that, don’t worry about her answer, just do what feels right at the moment. Don’t think, just feel.” Rohit smiled. Ratish had somewhere voiced the exact thoughts crossing in Rohit’s mind. Rohit desperately wanted to go and tell Neha that he was in love with her. There was a brief pause in which Rohit was busy starring at a nearby board which said ‘Neha Electricals’ and Ratish was busy drinking his juice. In one swift movement Ratish emptied his glass. He looked up a Rohit gave him a slight punch and said “If you feel it, you say it. Hurry up, drink the juice, and pay the bill, I have forgotten my wallet.”
Rohit had absolutely no clue of what was being taught in the lecture. He was fiddling about with his cell, every now and then he kept looking at Neha, who was sitting about two benches away from him. Suddenly she turned and looked behind, and smiled at some one in the back rows. Rohit looked in the direction and saw Sid smiling back at her. The entire episode suddenly possessed Rohit, in one swift decisive moment he typed ‘I love you’ in the message window and sent the SMS to Neha. May be it was plain jealousy, or the fear of loosing her but it was certainly something very negative that provoked him to send the message to her. He kept looking at her. Neha’s first reaction was surprise, her face turned into a bright red, and it looked as if she was suppressing a strong desire to smile. About half an hour later when the lecture was almost about to end Rohit’s cell vibrated, with shaking hands he opened his inbox, to see Neha’s name right at the top among unread messages.


‘We need to talk’


He was about to reply when his cell vibrated once again.


It was Neha’s mesasage again.


‘How about McDonalds? 1.’o clock ,


He replied in one word. ‘O.K’


Rohit had absolutely no idea of what was going to happen at 1.o clock. He prayed in every temple on the way. He reached McDonalds a bit late, and saw Neha sitting on the bench outside, reading Da-Vinci code. Rohit walked up to her and said ‘Hi’ Neha looked up, kept the book back in her bag and said ‘Hi. Let’s go in. shall we?’ About ten minutes later they were seated on one of the tables with a large coke and one McChicken on the tray, all of which Neha had bought. “Well” she said looking up with an expression half of confusion and half of excitement. “This is good” Rohit said taking a big bite of the burger. There was a brief pause. She kept looking at him and he kept looking down at the half eaten burger. There was an awkward silence. He looked up into her eyes. ‘Say it now, say it, before she says something’ a voice inside his head screamed.
“I love you” Rohit said. She kept looking at him. Her expression changed slightly, but Rohit couldn’t make out, if she was happy, or sad or simply disinterested.
“Go on” she almost whispered.
“For a long time, I was feeling this strong urge to tell you what you mean to me, and today the day has come. Life has been good to me; I have everything I want at least that is what I think, but today when I am sitting here looking into your eyes, I know there is someone I want to take care of, there is some one I want to laugh with, there is some one I want to cry for, there is some one whose hand I want to hold when I am falling and there is some one with whom I want to share every little thing in life and that someone is you.” She looked down, sighed. Rohit was almost feeling proud that he had managed to say such a sentence with such comfort, élan and under such heavy emotion. “You do realize we are very young to get into any commitment now.” She said after a brief pause. Rohit nodded. The next statement made a dent in Rohit’s heart. “I am not in love with you”. She said silently. There was loud music being played in McDonalds, and, above all that noise, Rohit heard her voice plain, soft and oddly silent. The words struck his heart like a piercing arrow. “It’s too early” she said looking at him. He should have chosen his next words very carefully, and he would have averted another deadly blow. “Is there some one else?” Rohit asked hoping against hope that the answer would be no. “I don’t know” she said. “I don’t know if, I should tell you” was her next sentence. Rohit felt like a soldier who knows he is going to die in the battle, and even then he ventures in the battle field, with his chin up and chest out.
“Tell me who the one lucky man on this planet is?”
“Sid” she said looking straight into his eyes
A long time had passed. They were now in the second semester. Companies had started recruiting them, and Hyderabad being the I.T hub that it is, every one in the class was super excited. For Rohit however life had not changed much. 7 long months had passed, and with each passing day his love for Neha had gown exponentially, and fortunately for him nothing had transpired between Sid and her. Unrequited love is hard to face. To see the person you love in front of your eyes, knowing that she doesn’t feel the same about you is easier said than done. But in these months there was one big development. Neha became very attached to Rohit. There wasn’t a day when Neha had not called him, sometimes to ask about a particular assignment, sometimes to ask a doubt, sometimes under the pretext of asking a doubt, and sometimes just like that. Their phone calls lasted at least an hour. Even Rohit hadn’t understood how, when and most importantly the reason why, he had turned into Neha’s most trusted friend, from just another guy in the class.

Rohit looked at Neha; He had never ever seen anyone eat samosas with so much satisfaction. “This is the best thing on the planet” she announced after finishing her plate. “They don’t even need to wash it” Rohit said pointing at her empty plate. “Shut up” she said. They were sitting in Café Shehnaaz an old Irani hotel in central Hyderabad right in front of Neha’s home.
“So what were you doing on Necklace road yesterday?”
“Necklace Road?” Rohit looked up at her, questioningly.
“Yes around 7 pm” Neha said “You and Shwetha were in that bhel shop besides TNR. I was on my bike. I screamed your name at least 10 times, but you were extremely busy”.
“Oh yes! Shwetha had to make some copies of the Infosys aptitude papers so I had gone to her place” Rohit said remembering “and then we just went across to have some bhel-puri”.
“She wanted the papers right? Can’t she come somewhere near your place? Why did you have to come down so far?
Rohit said nothing, he just kept looking at Neha.
“You and Shwetha are good friends aren’t you? I always feel that she keeps bossing you” Neha said looking at Rohit.
“You must be observing us, really well” he said with a slight smile.
“Oh Puhhhhleeasssseee” Neha replied.
“Well she doesn’t boss me” Rohit said, “but there is one particular girl who does boss me sometimes”.
“Who?” said Neha, her voice was suddenly high pitched.
Rohit kept looking at her. Neha blushed slightly
“Well I boss you. Don’t I?” Neha said looking straight into Rohit’s jet black eyes. “You know, the fact is that, I love to boss you” she said smiling wide.
“I would love to be bossed my entire life” he said.


Days passed, seasons changed, and gradually Rohit had become a vital part of Neha’s life. The ‘café Shehnaaz’ hangouts had now become an everyday phenomenon, and most of the people in their class including Sid had realized that there was some thing much more than pure, plutonic friendship between them. The only person, who eluded this truth and turned a blind eye to it, was Neha. Rohit was in a mixed state of emotions. Sometimes he felt that Neha was totally in love with him, and it was only matter of time till she herself said this, and sometimes he felt that he was just making himself believe this.

It was 1st of March 2007. The sun was rapidly sinking below, turning the sky into a red – blue cocktail. “You had brought me here to tell me something” Rohit said looking at Ratish. They were sitting on one of the most beautiful, small hills in Hyderabad, watching the sun making its descent across the horizon. Rohit looked at Ratish and wished Neha was sitting there instead of him. “I think Neha has an affair with that Siddhartha” Ratish said looking at Rohit. “There are a lot of people who have spotted them together and I hear that Sid has himself announced this amongst his friends”


The signal turned red and Rohit brought his bike to a screeching halt. The traffic police woman across the junction gave him a horrible look. He was on his way to Café Shahnaaz.. Neha had called him to tell him that she was in the mood for Samosas. Rohit’s mind wondered over what Ratish had told him just about 2 hours ago. He couldn’t understand what he was feeling at the moment. He was jealous, angry and shocked. Some part of him, said that whatever Ratish had told was entirely false, but Ratish was an extremely dear friend, and if he had felt the need to come and tell him this, there had to be a certain truth value to it. But more than jealousy, Rohit felt anger, and more than anger he was feeling a strong sense of betrayal. He reached Shahnaaz and saw Neha waiting for him besides the steps, leading to the hotel

“Let’s have that Irani-Kachori today.” she said as he came near to her.
“We always eat whatever I want, lets eat your favorite dish today” she said smiling that beautiful smile.
“Anything wrong” she said scanning his face.
“What is going on between you and Sid” Rohit fumed out. He himself was surprised at his tone and the angst in his voice. He had never ever spoken to Neha in such a manner. She was taken aback by the sudden aggression.
“Nothing is going on between us” she said calmly.
'People are speaking about you two. He has apparently declared this amongst his friends. I want an explanation and I want it now.” Rohit said almost shouting.
“I told you there is nothing going on, and I am not doing any explaining”, Neha’s voice too had risen by some decibels. “Can we drop this? And go in, or even better, go to our own homes”
“Well you owe me an explanation” Rohit said catching hold of her arm as she had started to walk away
.“No I don’t” shouted Neha freeing her arm from his hand in one swift motion. “Who are you? Why do I owe you an explanation, are you my brother, my father, my husband, my boy-friend? There was a momentary silence and they kept looking at each other.
“You are right. I am none of these” Rohit said breaking the silence, “then what the hell am I doing here now. I have better things to do”.
“Well then go do them” yelled Neha her voice suddenly going from hard to soft now, her eyes brimming up with tears.
“You know what Neha; I think I am lucky I am not your boyfriend. It would be a pity to have such a confused girlfriend.” Rohit said.


He turned and left. She kept looking at him. He Her eyes were all wet, almost pleading, asking him to stop. He was too consumed with rage to stop.




2nd March 2007.
Rohit woke up in the morning, with a slight head ache. He got out of bed and made his way into the kitchen. “Why don’t you turn your phone on silent?” his mom asked, as he entered the kitchen. “It was ringing the whole night”. Rohit looked at it. 12 missed calls. All were from Neha. He didn’t call back. It was almost 4’0 clock in the afternoon. Rohit hadn’t shaved, hadn’t gone to college, and hadn’t even had a bath. After about half an hour, he was sitting in Mcdonalds, alone, waiting for Ratish. Ratish had called him and asked him to come and meet him there. Rohit saw the table where he and Neha had been sitting roughly a year ago. It made him feel sad. He had never ever loved anyone as much as Neha. Her smile flashed in front of his eyes. He buried his head in his palms and felt them getting wet by his tears. “Are you waiting for someone?” A gentle voice asked. Rohit wiped of his tears and smiled. He knew who the voice belonged to. He looked up and saw Neha standing besides the table, carrying a tray in her hand. There was a McChicken burger on it along with a large coke. She sat down on the chair in front of him. “Give me your hands” she gently whispered, putting her hands on the table in front of her. He put his hands in hers’. She looked into his eyes.


“For a long time, I was feeling this strong urge to tell you what you mean to me, and today the day has come. Life has been good to me; I have everything I want at least that is what I think, but today when I am sitting here looking into your eyes, I know there is someone I want to take care of, there is some one I want to laugh with, there is some one I want to cry for, there is some one whose hand I want to hold, when I am falling and there is some one with whom I want to share every little thing in life and that someone is you.”


She said and almost sobbed at the end of it.


“I love you” she said grasping his hand even more tightly.


“I love you more” Rohit replied.


‘Not Possible” she said.






”Chemistry” shouted Ratish from a table behind.